2 more days and i will be leaving Singapore!
to a cooler place.....a much cooler place!!!
the temperature there now is in between 23 to 28 degree celsius so it'll be like walking around in a big air-con room!
*giggles and rubs hands together in glee*
tell me that the wind has blown itself empty and i'll believe you.
yesterday was hot. way tooooo hot!

this year may well be the last yr i'm travelling w the family.
finances have been a problem since both parents are semi-retired.
so if there is a trip next yr, it'll probably be to malaysia or even nearer-sentosa?
whatever it is, i'm thankful that i've managed to visit so many countries during my youth.

counting down....3,2,1 and off i go!

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, May 26, 2009

today was a good day.
spent the entire day w the bf.
we caught 2 movies - night @ the museum & the conspirator.
both not bad.
ate heartily at the village as well!
for those more sua gu then me, the village is a jap restaurant which sells sushi at 99cents per plate.
we managed to down 11 plates of sushi, 1 plate of octopus & another dish of fried tofu.
and then it was round 2 at the famous claypot rice stall at chinatown w his family.
i don't tink i've eaten so much rice in a day.
so starchy and fattening. =X
walked around chinatown a bit and to my surprise, there were many stalls selling decent clothes at even more decent prices!
i always thought chinatown is where aunties and old people like to hangout and that is why the shops there sell only chi-na stuff.
but man, i was wrong!
if i don't manage to buy some nice outfits frm China, i will willingly settle for those at chinatown.

Wove Rainbows At Monday, May 25, 2009

today w Ps. Mike was as good as i expected it to be.
i missed the session w him last yr.
so i was extra hopeful and super excited for this session.
he is one of my favourite preachers.
i haf heard him speak quite a number of times.
most of his msges are simple, drafted specially to minister to the unchurched.
he has a style different frm Ar Bernard, Phil Pringle and the rest of the other big-time speakers.
but yet, even though his messages ain't new, i will always be ministered to in one way or another during his svc.
he has a heart that readily and easily receives frm God and instantaneously transmit the love and power to the person he is ministering to.
behind the great things he does for God lies a heart that genuinely loves people.
i guess that's wat touched me the most.
i remember boxing, pinching, scratching and beating him quite violently when he was delivering me during one of the sot sessions 2 yrs back.
instead of standing aside n letting the security handle me, he gave me a hug, stroked my hair and told me that it was ok.
when i crumpled on the floor in tears, he knelt beside me and held my hand tight.
God, never let my heart harden.
let is always be soft all the days of my life.
even if it means being more vulnerable to hurt.
as long as there is still room to receive Your love, i knw tt everything will be ok.

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, May 24, 2009

i'm bursting w excitement!!!!
so full of bubbly feelings tt i can't get to sleeeeeep.
its been a long long day.
but cg was awesome!
the starting wasn't so good.
everyone was tired and the atmosphere was heavy.
but! everything changed during worship.
He showed up.
that familiar, warm touch.
that gentle, comforting voice.
i was in a jungle w green trees all around.
that place reminded me of narnia somehow.
it was totally unfamiliar, but yet safe.
there was dew on the leaves and a really relaxing breeze tt made the trees sway.
i could almost smell the forest.
and then, towards the end of the cg, it got even better.
the atmosphere was so thick it was like walking through haze.
and then, xw got me to pray for a new member for the baptism of the Holy Spirit.
my first time eva!
and it was shiok!
the new member was like elise.
spoke a complete long string of tongues so fluently and without hesistating one bit.
and den she started crying in the presence.
it feels good to haf been used as an instrument.
sure beats lying on the shelf rusty and half spoilt.
i don't want to ever forget my first experience.
and tts why i'm pening it down.
saving it in my blog and most of all, in the archives of my memory.
if He can use me, He can use anybody.

Wove Rainbows At Friday, May 22, 2009

the nightmare is over and i haf returned to my seat in front of the computer.
i'll be starting work officially in June.
my schedule is packed w individual lessons on weekdays and back to back group sessions on Sunday.
i feel exhausted just looking at it.
furthermore, school will resume in july!!!!
i need grace, grace and MORE grace.
going to treasure whatever time i haf before i start work.

work and stress aside,
i think deep down i'm a really free-spirited person.
i like freedom.
i dislike being tied down.
generally speaking of course.
nothing to be read into this pls.
i used to haf friends around me all the time when i was younger.
but now, i find myself really enjoying time spent by myself and with the family.
when you're alone,
life doesn't seem to rush by so.
when you're alone,
you'll get to savour life one mouthful at a time.

and so, i'm going to haf breakfast w my parents tmr.
then see if there are any classes at the community centre tt we can enrol ourselves into.
cooking lessons, dancing? maybe.
its all v. exciting!

Wove Rainbows At Monday, May 18, 2009

my dashboard
says
that
i have
4
blogs
to
manage.

i want to laugh.
because,
those blogs were created when i was in my lowest valley.
i didn't want to post those entries here for the whole world to read.
but yet, i needed to write away my unhappiness and post it anyway.

i don't want to look back anymore.
my life has been ticking away bringing me closer n closer to heaven.
but i've been living life, backwards.
no more.
my 1/2 yr resolution - to give myself a couple of days (at most a week) to rebound frm any setback i face.
no more escaping, no more running away.
i'm going to allow my roots to grow deep.
this tree is going to reach the sky.
one day.
soon.

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, May 14, 2009

i have presents!!!
a huge domo domo, a pink kitty card holder and whacking hello kitty headphones!
i feel extremely happy.
becox it tells me that some things in the past don't change.
the 'wanttobuythingsforyouwhenihavethemoney' speech has always been put to action.
you scrimped on yourself to squeeze out enough to bless me.
i am assured of your heart. :)
i wonder when will we have more then enough.
abundance for entertainment, food, clothes, luxury items, and more importantly to support ourselves and greater future commitments.
that we won't have to limit ourselves to just 2 rounds of bowling.
or 1 show a week.
or a meal at the foodcourt.
i want to live in over-flowing, bank-exploding, abundance!
but i guess now, i can only sow....
and to keep sowing..
and to keep believing..
and to keep hoping..
and to keep praying.
but that day will come.
i know.

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, May 13, 2009

last wk, a member who had backslidden '3/4 way' gave a testimony that God gave him 'revelation' on the exam questions when he was praying the night before his exams.
and yes, the exact questions came out.
i was thinking to myself that this person must really believe in God to spend precious time before the exam doing his QT where most would be busy with their preparations.
i'm not done studying everything so God, i need that revelation as well. :)

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, May 10, 2009

i'm wide awake nw at 7am despite having slept for only 4 miserable hrs.
again, its not tt i'm not sleepy.
its just that...
i'm afraid to close my eyes.
dreading to visualize the images of tt horror movie.
i don't understand how some people can watch the most gruesome horror shows and yet walk out from the theatre totally unaffected.
oh why did i act tough and watch that show?!
now i can't close my eyes without imagining scenes in that show.
i can even get slightly freaked out taking a 5min catnap in a train crowded to the brim w people.
i want to get over this 'getfreakedoutoverthetiniestthing' habit(?).
but how shd i go abt overcoming this fear?
by watching more horror movies?
or by total abstinence until i feel tt my heart is strong enough and i've somehow managed to convince myself tt everything on the big screen is fake?
keeping the main light on, playing a P&W cd before bedtime, having a pillow handy for eye-covering and another for tight hugging.
these measures don't really seem to work.
i think i may just get my mum to move back into my room.
i need my sleep.

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, May 07, 2009

time seems to past so fast..
one blink of the eye and a week has already gone by.

haf been trying to cramp as much info as possible.
but why does it feel like my head is just too small to contain everything tt needs to go in?
dreading bed time becox i can't sleep well.
worrying abt the exams, thinking abt the what ifs, planning which chapters and subjects to cover w the remaining time left.
oh God.
You said: "But do not be anxious abt anything, but in everything with prayer and supplication, let your request be made known."
i leave it in Your hands.
i got to, before this worrying eats me up.
so much to do, so little time.
i need a miracle!

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, May 07, 2009

well well...
caught X-men yesterday w the cg, new friends and tonnes of other people frm e same zone.
it was a great movie because i am a great fan of X-men.
but this movie was somewhat different frm the other X-men movies.
it left me w a slight bitter feeling when i walked out of the theatre.
why did Wolverine haf such a hard life?
constantly persecuted for wanting to do good.
the film is so irrelevant to our ordinarly folk's lives.
afterall we don't haf superpowers like gambit or enemies to be on the look out for 24/7.
but, the realism of the film was felt..
"everyone has a choice."
at first, it seemed like Wolverine had his taken away.
but when the deceit and mystery cleared, he realized tt his was there all along.
emotions had made it hard to choose the right choice.
but he did it in the end.
yet, even when he did good everyone he loved and cared abt died.
its so sad..
good isn't always repaid w good is it?

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, May 03, 2009