its all so deeply buried inside..
how long will it tk to dig everyting out?
how long? jux how long?
long enuff to clean u up


as You dig and pull,
i begin to wonder,
jux how deep is the heap?
deep enuff to need help from Me


truckloads haf been towed away..
but its still blocked..
the light is out..
does dis valley haf an end?
trust Me. I'll be wif u.

you look and u snear..
just tk it in stride..
this is life.
only You understand. only You can gif me wat i need. only You hug first and lecture later. only You love me for hu i am. only You.

how long can i suppress?
how much can i give?
jux as much as you've received..


i need my sleep..
and my personal space..


the words not written.
the song not sung.
hu can understand?
only You.

Wove Rainbows At Friday, March 31, 2006

confrontation....
man! jux typing the word out intimidates me so...

its 1 ting to be confronted,
but another ting to confront..
wat if tings dun work out?
wat if the person cannot tk it?
wat if u lose the person's liking and trust in the process?
so many wat ifs...
but wat if u din try?
you'll deprive the person frm a chance to realize the truth and change..
you're walking away and leaving the person chained up wif heavy metal chains of ignorance...
you'll cause more harm den gd..
the consequences are indeed grave!!
so, JUST DO IT!!!!


of cox there is the 'nice n direct' confrontation and the harsh 'whack-in-the face' confrontation..
the nice approach for the softer, more fragile kind and the 'just whack' kind for those hu are as hard as rock...
but, in short, all of us need to be confronted when the need arises..
if you're not confronted, how to noe where ur blind spots are?
how to change?
i'm sure none of us wanna remain a featherless chick..
HAHAHAHA~!!!


this is the beginning...
and it is sooooo exciting!!!
continue to lead me......

Wove Rainbows At Monday, March 27, 2006

in corinthians 13,
b4 love is anything,
love is patient..
and patience onli cums wif understanding..

patience, i need more patience!!!

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, March 26, 2006

if you're always struggling wif the same prob,
den smt is wrong..
perhaps, its tym u start listening to the pple tt God has placed in ur life..
perhaps, your whole theory and perception of tings is wrong!
perhaps, its ur attitude..
perhaps, u shd try taking off ur cloak of pride..
perhaps......


watever it is,
there is no such ting as a prob tt cannot be solved..
NO SUCH THING!!!
its ur choice!!
you're what u are becox of the choices tt you've made...
if you're happy now,
its becox u chose to be happy..
if you're crying now,
its becox u've chosen to hold on to the tings tt are pulling u down..
hu doesn't haf problems in life?
its how u handle them..


when u find urself struggling wif hurt and unforgiveness,
hu do u blame first?
"why, the pple or person hu has hurt me of cox"
standard ans..
if u haf to blame someone,
u shd blame urself for refusing to let go of the hurt..
by doing so, the onli person you're hurting is urself...


i've messed up a thousand times..
maybe more..
but thank God He doesn't point His finger at me and blame me for it..
He noes n understands tt i'm imperfect..
but wat abt us?
whenever tings don't work out,
i'm quick to uncurl mi fat finger and blame someone for it..
sound familiar?
perhaps you've played the blame game urself too..
the nx tym we wanna do so,
lets look at the grace God has given to us..
we mess up, He sees, He forgives...
can't we do the same?


don't look at me as if i'm so holy or wat...
i'm like u..
i sometimes struggle wif the above too...
lets learn 2 let go n let God..

Wove Rainbows At Saturday, March 25, 2006

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high

erm..wats up wif the cheap n angsty tingy??!!
bu zhun wan!!
=X


i wonder how painful donating blood is going to be...
shivers..
if i faint,
do catch me b4 i fall k?
so nervous now!!
oKays, mi energy level is seriously low..
spelt L-O-W with the capital 'L'
i'm off!!!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, March 24, 2006

i'm 1 super blessed gal!!
1-2 wks back i was blessed wif a new guitar, an ipod nano, $200 shopping vouchers and a new bag!!
i thot tt the blessings wld stop there...
BUT
joa blessed me today wif the book tt i've been DYING to have!!
[ "a love worth giving" by max lucado!]
PTL!!!!
indeed, when God blesses, He blesses abundantly!!
I'M SOOO HAPPY!!!
thank you joa!!!!
*MUACKIEZ!*

this is all amazing!!!!!!!!!!!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, March 17, 2006

the tings tt used to bother me crazy in the past dun seem to matter tt much anymore...
haf i numbed mi emotions or hardened mi heart??
or perhaps i've surrendered or given up?
*shrugs*
it jux seems strange to me tt i'm hardly bothered...
or maybe i am but i'm not admitting it?
is dis wat i want??
wat a confused entry...

o well...
i got more impt tings to tink abt now...

life is like a fairytale...
b4 reading a bk, u wun noe the story...
but we noe tt fairytales always end wif "they lived happily ever after"
isn't life wif God the same?
u dunno wat will happen next,
but u can be assured tt the end will be gd....
its goin to be alright!
i will not fear...

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, March 14, 2006

PTL!!!!
got back mi results...

tk a look at mi previous sem's results...

May semester

Food Ingredients: F
Food Preservation and Quality Assurance: C
Applied Food Sanitation: D+
Nutrition Across the Life Span: D
Catering Technology: D+
Applied Principles for Effective Living 2: Pass
Introduction to Language & Culture (French): B


tk a look at mi present sem's results....

November semester

Communication Skills for Applied Science 3: B+
Food Preservation and Quality Assurance Project: B+
Advanced Food Science: B
Community Nutrition: C+
Health and Wellness: B
National Education (NE): Pass


Finally.....BREAKTHROUGH!!!!!
NO MORE SUPP PAPER!!!!!
NO MORE Ds!!!!!!!

although no A or Z dis sem,
i'll aim for all As next sem....
hahahahas!!!


Thank You for Your grace.....
its Your victory!!!!!
Cheers!!!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, March 10, 2006

tink i'm becuming a more balanced person...
balanced in every single way...
not so double-minded and uncertain anymore...
at least i noe wat i want now...
hahahas!!! =)

life is gooooood!

Wove Rainbows At Monday, March 06, 2006

there is so much selfishness in dis world...

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, March 05, 2006

its been another rollarcoaster wk...
one day i can be jumping for joy and screaming Hallelujah!!
the next i can be crying mi heart out...
one day i can be feeling like e most blessed gal in dis world,
the next i'm being eaten up by loneliness...
so much unstability in the area of mi emotions...
its one area i noe i gotta deal wif...


well,
cg meeting ended today wif a realli gd ministry!!
i was abit sian becox i thought i wldn't be ministered to becox i was playing...
but, God is GOOD!!!
aftr cg, sis xw prayed n ministered to me!!
i'll always hold on tightly to dis word!!
its going to shape mi life!!!
i suddenly realized tt i've imprisoned myself wif mi limitations in a box..
jux tinking tt wateva i do ain't going to mk much diff n i'm jux walking arnd in circles...
it was me, myself and i wif mi limited strength and minute heart...
but, wow!!!!!! i mean WOW!!!!
God has such a big big big big BIG vision for me!!!
and He truely sees mi heart!!!
when no one sees, He sees!!!
He noes i'm scared so He wrapped assurance, strength and annointing as a present n gave them to me!!!
as the word was spoken,
faith started to arise n i began to see myself living out the calling tt God has for me!!
jux a glimpse into the future is enuff!!!
i noe wat mi life is going to be like!!!
i noe where i'm heading!!!
the going seems a lil slow...
but i'll reach there eventually!!
i will, I WILL!!!


for now, wat do i plan to do wif mi 1 month hols?
definately, spend more quality time wif mi family....
not forgetting reaching out and blazing the trail for revival!!!
reading more books...(need to increase in knowledge)
concentrate on mi piano n guitar...
fellowship wif den n ting!!! its been so long!!!
so mani tings to do...
so mani tings tt need brushing up...
i'm glad i haf 1 month!!!


on a diff note,
i was in a veh bad shape yest n dis morning..
jux totally din feel like playing 4 cg at all! i got mi white flag all polished n ready to wave at sis xw..
the reason: i was afraid tt God's presence wld nt show up during the cg becox i did smt wrong yest...
i thought to miself, "how to lead when you're dirty?"
"will God show up?" "if He doesn't how? you'll be tekan again..."
yes, i noe tt God died for the forgiveness of our sins n all tt...
but for some reason, it jux couldn't sink into mi spirit..
since i cldn't forgive miself, i thought tt God wldn't forgive me either...
struggle, fight, sigh, pull hair, cry, scream...all tt done in the privacy of mi bedroom..
haha!
aftr doing 1 hr plus of totally cannot mk it QT,
i gave up, took up a bk n started reading..
as i flipped thru the colourful pages, all i cld tink of was, die die die! dis tym die le...
thank God for knocking some sense into mi puny head wif dis...
"i challenge you to find one soul who came to God seeking for grace and did not find it...Find one person who came seeking a second chance and left with a stern lecture. I dare you. Search. You won't find it."
dis phrase is quoted frm the bk "God's roadmap for new beginnings" by max lucado..
yes, he is mi all tym fav author!!!
mi spirit did a double somersault and i was back!!!
back on track!!
so yepx...thank God cg was gd!!!
anywayz, hope dis phrase will help u guys when you're facing self-condemnation!
it sure helped me!!

wonder wat nx wk will bring!
always from glory to glory!!!
revival will come!!
Amen!

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, March 02, 2006