i dun think you 2 will be able to read this,
but....

thanks janice, for being such an angel.
whenever i'm absent for lecture,
you will never fail to collect a set of lecture notes and help me copy out the notes for the day.
i remember when you first handed me the copy of lecture notes with your handwriting on it,
i thought you wanted to lend me so i could make a copy.
but, you handed it to me and told me tt its for me.
a set of hand-copied lecture notes when i did not even tell you tt i would be absent for the lesson.
you made an effort to look out for me,
and you went the extra mile to collect the notes and copy it out for me.
not once, not twice, but EVERYTIME i am absent for lecture.
i am not someone close to you.
when you were sad, i wasn't there.
when you needed someone to talk to,
i was never there either.
i think for 3 years, i have only had lunch with you, in a group, once.
and i dun really speak to you during normal school days.
but yet, you did tt for me in this selfish world.
i am so touched.
thank you for bringing your love into my life.

and kalai! you are another angel.
i remember in sem 2 when i had to sit for my fc supplementary paper,
you compiled your own notes and handed it to me.
and, you sat down with me patiently and taught me for an hr plus though it was ur holiday.
everytime i needed help with my exams or hw,
you would be there to help.
never once haf you told me to steer my own ship and help myself.
though we are "competitors" in the exams,
you have been very gracious and pulled out extra time to revise with me and make sure i understand.
though i am not very close to you either,
you took special care of me.
though i remember the hurting remarks i made when we were in sem 1,
when we ceased to hang out as good friends,
you forgave and decided to continue to love me.
thank you kalai.

love my classmates!

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, December 14, 2006

ever felt lost and unsure of what to do?
you long for things to return to how it originally was.
you long to make a difference again.
but, circumstances are jux different now.
what you've done in the past,
you feel like the license to do those things has been confiscated.
maybe like what i've typed,
its jux a feeling and may not be reality.
but, do you know how awful tt feeling is?
to love chocolate, but can't eat it though pple all arnd you are munching hard.
the license? lack of money.
it feels tt way jux abt 5 times worse.
when i read blogs tt portray the reader as a super fruitful person,
i feel even worse.
even if you want to do something,
you got to wait for the door to open and the opportunity to surface.
if everything shuts in your face,
what is the best thing you can do?
make do with what you have and give ur best at it.
right now, what do i have left?

1. my relationship
2. 3 months more to fulfill my vision in school
3. the opporunity to serve as a guitarist
4. JAMS
5. taking care of new friends when they come
6. build stronger relationship with members
7. Christmas souvenirs

its not as easy as what you think.
i'm still struggling to move on.

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, December 14, 2006

the blogger is back!
am kindda sad cox my nice pink blog exceeded its bandwidth.
o wells,
welcome to the new meh meh wan.

tml will be my last paper.
yay!
at least this last term test doesn't clash with my big day.
am soooo excited!!!
wonder what are the things lying in store for me.
muahahaha!

update again soon.
tooodoo!

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, December 12, 2006