i've learnt alot of new tings today...can feel miself growing spiritually stronger each day!!! was actually quite troubled by the fact tat e243 n e356 are veh much different...the way we fellowship, the way we behave n react to given situations, the level of maturity, the urgency to bring new friends to Christ n the general attitute towards Christianity are all different...spent a few hrs after discipleship fellowshipping wif denise, ting n claris...i'm feeling soo much better as compared to yesterday!!! at least i'm clear of mi purpose in e356..together wif silin, we're going to mk a difference!!! denise said smt which impacted mee alot!!! she said tat no matter which cg we're in, wat matters is tat we carry the spirit of e243 in us!!! the fire n passion in us is infectious!!! am luving every moment of mi walk wif Christ...was feeling tired physically, emotionally n spiritually b4 cuming 4 discipleship but was renewed by the word of God...realized tat i've been sticking mi nose into tings tat doesn't concern mee...no wonder i'm burnt out soo fast...gotta be wise n tink twice nx time!!! yeah!!! looking forward to badminton tml n biblestudy on thurs...uh huh uh huh...=D o yar, below is mi fav song...enjoy!!

=Crossing Over=
We come, before ur throne
Our hearts we gif to u
We long to see ur kingdom cum
n bring ur truth to all the earth

Nations will cry out ur name
Send us to ur harvest,
Lord we pray..

By ur spirit o Lord
We claim the nations,
of the world 4 u Jesus
Pour down ur love
Holy Spirt move in us today

By ur spirit o Lord
We claim the nations,
of the world 4 u Jesus
By ur word of truth,
we're crossing over
to claim the lost 4 u...


Wove Rainbows At Monday, November 29, 2004

i'm exhausted!!! i need God more den anyting else now!!! i'm devastated too..adrian told mee today tat he is going to transfer me n silin to e356...the feeling of being seperated frm the pple hu haf been by mi side, watching mee grow spiritually for the past 2-3 mths was dreadful!! but wat could i do? i din haf a choice...i tried sulking, i tried reasoning, i tried refusing but nth worked..the lil kid inside mee wanted to scream its protest but smt stopped me...i remembered the pact i made wif miself.. i wanted to start repecting mi leaders especially adrian...realized tat i've been rather rude to him lately...sooo, i buried all the discontent inside mee n agreed to the transfer..immediately after adrian announced the transfer, everyting changed...i could practically see the barrier e243 build around themselves...they toked n laffed like nth had happened..for the first time, i realized how silin n grace (the quieter members) feel when we tok or laff among ourselves...i felt left-out..then, they decided tat it was time to go...packing their bags, they went off together...i wanted to join them but i din feel as if i belonged to tat group anymore...watching them go off liddat delt mee wif yet another blow...i felt hurt...anxious not to let anyone decipher mi feelings, i put on a big big ultra fake smile...gathering mi thoughts, i realized den tat it was the end of smt but the beginning of another...felt much better aftr tat...went to jurong point to watch "the shutter" wif zhi wei n li zhen..we crapped n laffed alot...hahha, they're fun to be arnd larhx...=D

i also realized tat members (including miself) are becoming more n more "rank" consious; some of us for the wrong reasons altogether...its good to wanna serve God more...its good to be a helper or main helper..budden i tink the most impt ting is to get our relationship wif God right first..rite now, all i wanna focus on is to walk side by side wif God!! i wanna grow to be more like him!! i wanna be a disciplined christian hu does not dread doing QT and does not waver in the face of temptation!!! am having trouble trying to overcome certain issues in mi life rite now...feeling veh burdened by mani tings...i hate feeling dis way!! i wanna haf freedom but the onli way to attain freedom is to lose salvation..this is a definate uh uh...o well, trials n tribulations mk us stronger!! tml is discipleship n prayer meeting!! hope i'll be able to breakthrough again n tk a step of faith!! God, i need u!!! Come heal all the wounds..Use mee as an instrument 4 ur glory!! this is mi prayer...Amen!




Wove Rainbows At Monday, November 29, 2004

i'm sick!!! having a slight fever n sore throat!!! arrgh!!! jux came back frm the chalet organized by 4 diff cgs...overall it was a success!!!

Day 1: we played lotsa games..captain's ball using raw chicken as the ball n water bombs where we had to retrieve the raw chicken frm the opposing group!!! i was kindda grossed out at first but it got better larhx..the chicken wasn't soo bad after all!!! ha!

Day 2: we had cg n bbq...the turnout for both events were great!!! the presence of God was soo strong tat mi whole body was tingling throughout the WHOLE session!!! even mi friends hu sat outside could feel the peace of God!!! wow!!! lotsa pple turned up for the bbq!! the whole place was soo packed tat i found it hard to walk..tings were chaotic n as i wasn't wearing mi specs, i couldn't see aniting..i could onli mk out shapes moving here n there..imagine how giddy i was...therefore, i din join in the fun n laffter..contented miself wif serving drinks n clearing the place...after the bbq, we had a cycling tour round east coast park...we cycled to n fro frm 1 end to the other...

Day 3: check out time!!! slept at 6 the day b4 n woke up at 8 the nx day...was soo tired tat i was the last one to wake up despite the constant shakings n punches...heh heh..yupz, tts bout it ba...

was feeling kindda dry n burned out 2day...went out to play badminton wif de quan, andrew n mei yin...andrew is like super pro lorhx..he sent mee puffing n panting all over the place wif he's flying "balls"..after tat we went to the arcade to play..had a wonderful QT jux now..could feel the tangible presence of God in mi room...was much comforted by tat n the thought of going to church on sun fills mee wif soo much joy tat i feel like jiggling all arnd mi hse on tippy toes...hahahhaa!!!

lastly, i wanna say a big THANK YOU to all mi friends hu gave mee face n turned up for the chalet...xueqi, christine, michelle (tp), melissa, yan xin, shireen, alvin, wei ying, michelle n most importantly vanessa!!~ thanks alot guys!!! i hope u enjoyed urselves..hope to cya soon!!! cheers!!!

=Refuge=
i sing a luv song to u Lord
everyday, evernight
tell of ur goodness and mercy
tell the world, how u rescued me
picked me up frm sin and shame
ur breath gives me new life

where can i go frm ur presence
under ur wings, i tk refuge
ur spirit lives, within mi heart
i know, we'll never be apart

(Chorus)
everyday, i draw closer to u Lord
i long to see ur face
and hide in ur embrace
all mi life, dwelling in ur holy place
mi heart oh Lord u've changed
i'll never be the same (x2)


Wove Rainbows At Friday, November 19, 2004

its been 2 wks since i last blogged...sorry guys..life has been bz bz BZ!!! lotsa tings going on rite now...

ok lemme see...wat did i do last wk? o yar!! i had mi maths supplementary paper!! it was a killer paper!! at least the section B was..towards the end of section A i was alreadi struggling like mad...beads of perspiration oozed out frm mi pores..(ok, i was exggerating but u get the idea) bear in mind, tat was onli section A..by the time i got to section B, mi eyes were hanging out frm their sockets n i was fighting panic! i knew tat if i failed supp paper mi fate wld be sealed!!! i wld haf to retake the same sub nx yr..soo guess wat i did??? i prayed of cox!! after tat i wasn't afraid anymore..i knew tat wateva the prob is, God is in charge..though the paper was hard, i know tat he was there beside me holding mi hand n guiding me!!! thank you Jesus!!! o yar, got back mi results on sat...guess wat? i passed!!! happie shala lalala!!! this brings mee to mi nx point: ask n it shall be given, seek and u shall find..knock n the door will be open unto u!! =D

can't rmb wat else happened the wk b4...soo, i'll jump on to last wk...

last wk i attended a camp organized by tpsu (temask polytechnic student union)...the camp din start off veh well for mee..mani of mi friends hu were supposed to go din turn up...furthermore, the turnout was pathetic..(arnd 50-60 pple)...it kindda cast a certain amt of gloom over us participants n mee being seriously deprived of sleep was cranky n moody...i jux sat there hugging mi legs trying to transform miself into a place where i wld be left seriously alone..i tink i was quiet for about 2 hrs...wow!!! quick go buy 4D!! Xu Bin quiet for 2 hrs?? not possible huh...even i find it hard to believe...aiya, but u noe wat sleep can do to a person rite? bleh!! but, tings started to get better larhx...managed to becum quite "gum" wif some of the participants soo yupz..

after the camp, i went orchard area to gai gai again...nth new lar huh..bought another new bag frm bugis..hahah, am getting kindda greedy..o wells...

on sat, i brought vanessa, huili, sarah, shu min, alvin and shu yi to the indoor stadium for the carnival organized there...the service started at 7.00pm all the way till 11.00pm...the sermon was great n the presence of God was ever soo strong!! mi friends in particular shu min n sarah told mee tat they were "enlightened" after the service..(i quote wat they said) am glad glad GLAD tat God softened their hearts n brought them to church thru me...i hope they will continue to join mee for futher services!! yupz, tats bout all larhx...jux now adrain called n "discipled" mee...now den i realize i'm actually holding on to mani tings tat are hindering mi growth spiritually...i'm ready to let them go!!! i wana move on to the nx level!! i wanna do more n more n MORE for Jesus!!! help me oh Lord to fulfill mi calling...i'm going to sleep le...tml gotta wake up earlier to tie up all the loose strings den i'm ready to move on!!! leave the past behind n move on!!! Amen!!






Wove Rainbows At Sunday, November 14, 2004