i look at myself now.
and i feel tt i'm hideously selfish.
i complain and whine abt others not being there for me.
but when i open my eyes bigger,
i realize, i was never there for them.
so many needs before me.
tears tt i could have wiped.
encouragements i could have given.
but i chose to ignore.
to see and forget.
so much for saying tt i want to be faithful.
all this talk abt life transformation.
i think i'm missing the whole point of being a christian.

random note: my brother just told me tt he was on the phone with mr Singapore. :/

and joa! if you still read my blog..
just wanna say a big thank you!
from day 1 of our friendship,
you've never stopped blessing me.
once you know tt i'm down,
you'll surprise me with a handmade card and a bar of choc tt very weekend.
you've never judged me.
but have always loved me the way i am.
thank you girl for bringing in the sunshine when i'm down.
love you lots~!

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, August 26, 2007

i'm back to type my heart out again.
i've no idea wat kept me away for so long.
maybe its the piling hw,
or perhaps its the feeling of inadequacy tt my blog will never be as interesting as denise's or as eloquent as terrence's.
oh well...i'll just try to be me.

hectic.
though i'm not studying in uni or taking a part-time job,
i feel like i'm as busy as those who are or if possible, even busier.
aiya, i don't look stressed right?
tats becox i'm living on borrowed peace.
such a nice phrase which actually means procrastinate until no choice.

i can't help but wonder..
what lies in wait for me after sot?
is there a higher mountain of education i can scale?
wat job can i secure in the future?
will i be well paid?
so many people have been asking me abt my plans for the future.
and well, to be honest, i haven really got any.
i haven discovered wat i don't mind doing for the rest of my life.
neither have i chanced upon a well-paying job which i'm qualified to apply for.
am i destined for mediocracy all my life?
have a taken the wrong path of no return?
i need to know!
will You tell me?
afterall, there is nth hidden from You tt You do not know of.


big plans You have,
and promises You've given.
all tt is required is a little obedience.
looking forward and looking back.
Your faithfulness has well been proven.
this weaken vessel with cracks and holes,
will she ever sail around the world?
will she ever sail around the world?

Wove Rainbows At Monday, August 20, 2007