yays!!! PTL!!!
i feel sooo much better already!
thanks guys for all the prayers.
though i still can't talk,
at least the pain has more or less subsided.
will be seeing the specialist on tues.
see what he has got to say bahx.
teeenehneh..
ben is also better already.
jux gotta pray for his fever to be totally gone.
:) :) :)

was well enuff to attend service today.
really miss the presence of God.
other den praying for myself and ben,
i haven spent much time worshipping or doing my QT.
most of my time dis wk was spent sleeping or crying the pain off.
still, all is well now.

now, i want back my voice!
so tt i can take revenge on those pple who have suaned me while i was mute.
muahahahha!!!!
let me speak in Jesus name!

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, November 26, 2006

this week has been the WORST week for me in the year 2006.

1. its the first time i missed cg and most prob svc too.
2. i have 3 major projects / assignments to hand in this week.
3. ben was admitted to the hospital for his operation. Thank God he can be discharged today. :)
4. i'm still kept under observation. going for a blood test ltr at 2pm. next tues i have an appointment with a specialist who will decide whether i need to be operated on.
5. my uncle, the one who stays with me was admitted to the hospital this morning. His leg was swollen and the doctor thinks that its very unusual.
6. my major project friend, jane, is also in the hospital undergoing treatment. She was admitted on sat.
7. my major project is kept on hold because if i am not there, it cannot continue and we are already VERY short of time.

Oh God!!!
there are sooo many things that have to be done and so little time to complete everything.
i need to be well!!!!!!
i want back my health!!!!
its horrible being drugged with so much medicine.
nauseating...
i wun complain of my work load anymore.
i will refrain from eating too oily food.
i will try to exercise more.
i jux want me health back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks pple for praying for me and for all the very encouraging messages.
i din know so many pple actually cared for me.
its a nice feeling.
thanks for bringing in the sunshine.
you guys are great!!!
wo ai ni men!!!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, November 24, 2006

miserable.
been feeling downright miserable these few days.
am down with tonsilitis.
meaning, my tonsils are swollen and they HURT ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!
so much so that the pain wakes me up at night and causes the tears to flow.
thought lozenges wld help.
so i have them in the boxes, am so overdosed.
but no! other den making my tongue numb and swollen,
it hasn't worked one bit.
and the jab on my butt isn't working either.


to make things worse,
i can't visit ben who is in the hospital right now.
he jux had his jaw operation.
thank God it was a success but i'm worried sick la.
hate the feeling of not being there when your love n support is needed.


guys, please keep the both of us in prayer.
pray for healing, and strength.
it always works.
thanks so much!
appreciate it lots.

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, November 22, 2006

re-charged!!!!!
i feel like i can conquer the world.............
the problem is not the problem.
but, the problem is the stubborn refusal to turn to the right source n move on.
how scary it is when one is satisfied with wallowing in self-pity and pride.
how unhealthy it is for the soul when vision n hope is lost.
i'm glad i'm out of tt circle n bullshit.

starting to pray n do my QT again on a regular basis.
the touch of His peace, joy, and love on my parched soul is awesome!
there is no place like tt. :)

i was talking to melissa today on our way to get lunch on the subject of our timetable.
i was as usual, complaining abt the fact tt for the past 2-3 semesters, my timetable have been very different from my classmates.
not jux my clique or close friends, but my classmates.

meilissa : "ya lor ya lor, i realized tt too lehx. God wants you to reach out and impact more pple mahx."
me: "wah....you really think veh highly of me lehx."
meilissa: "ya, i really look up to you alot. you sure can do it de la."

i was so so touched..
it really brought my spirit and self-confidence up.
you haf no idea what a lil sincere praise can do to a person.
thanks! :)

also wanna thank joanna for blessing me with a book from my fav author....MAX LUCADO!!!
its titled "A Gentle Thunder."
it has blessed me a great deal and i carry it everywhere i go..
thanks sweetie!!! :)
for those who wanna read it too,
you'll hafta queue up. haha!
after ben, it'll be silin's turn.

and, not forgetting how my darling has been blessing me.
no matter how tight i may be financially,
i never haf to go w/o food becox he will always ensure tt i haf money to eat b4 he leaves.
from $0 left in my pocket and $5 left in his,
it'll be the other way round by the end of the day becox he is so afraid i'll starve.
and the cherry necklace, flowery purse, movie, nice food, etc etc...
God is really blessing him!!!
thanks for blessing me tooooooo...
heeheee...
i'm glad your money is my money n my money is your money..
hahaa!!
double blessings!!

may the windows of heaven open even wider over our lives!!
Amen!!!

Wove Rainbows At Monday, November 13, 2006

sch has re-opened for a mth.
i'm still struggling to stay above the water n not drown.
something is wrong..
I'M SUPPOSE TO BE THE HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL!!!!


major project is really driving me crazy.
and on top of tt,
there's still so many projects and assignments tt need to be completed.
guess, every student can't escape datelines and hw..
to make things worse, for many of my classes,
i'm alone..
my 19 classmates are all seperated from me.
meaning, i can't depend on them anymore.
i haf no choice but to be attentive n punctual for lessons so tt i wun miss anything becox there is no one to remind me to hand in dis, and study for tt.
guess, God wans me to interact more so tt i can't mk the excuse tt i haf no more friends to invite.

cg msg came at the right time yest.
tired of dis race..

Wove Rainbows At Friday, November 10, 2006