God, wat is happening??
am i not human?
do i not sin n mk the wrong decisions too?
but why am i not given the benefit of the doubt?
why when i've given grace,
none is given back to me frm the pple i've cared for?
have i not been there for u n prayed for u when things were bad?
have i not lent u a shoulder to cry on n a ear tt listens?
i feel so bitter.
it seems like all the seeds tt i've sown have been torn out n thrown into the fire.
are u being fair to me?
why whenever a wrong is being done,
it is magnified so big tt it covers the 100 rights u haf done.
why is it tt when i need someone now,
u are so far away frm me.
why is the word, intention, in the english dictionary since its always overlooked.
after raving n ranting,
i noe tt i did wrong.
but wat do u want me to do now?
wats been said have been said.
i wish i cld eat back my words n prevent u frm stumbling.
but i can't.
my heart is full of guilt, condemnation, fear, bitterness, resentment n anger.
God, give me back my love, joy n peace!!!!!
my heart is failing.
there's so much fear.
what can i do? but to trust in You.


who can i depend on?
who truely understands?
who sees the good beneath the broken?
who gives agape love?
who sees me jux the way i am, but still accepts n loves me?
dun ignore me.
dun turn Your back on me.
for without You, i dunno how can i live on.


let me start anew.

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, September 27, 2006

where sin abounds, grace abounds much more.
i'm seeking comfort in this verse.
noe tt the stares will be different when the verdict is proclaimed.
all i'm asking from u is grace.
i feel so condemned.
so weak n full of fear.
so human.

thank you for being strong for me.
i noe its tough for u too, maybe tougher.
but there's no turning back.
we may haf taken the wrong turning,
but God will recalculate the distance n ensure tt we get to our final destination ultimately.
God is good.
like wat u said,
we may be all alone now.
but human support will come in eventually when pple see tt we are walking right.
only You see the heart n the intentions.
be with us i pray.
for we are all alone.

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, September 26, 2006

The Lord will direct the steps of the righteous.

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, September 21, 2006

love suffers long and is kind;
love does not envy;
love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
love never fails.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8-

love is a package.

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, September 14, 2006