be strong.
fighting the enemy.

be strong.
shouting victory.

be strong.
the world nids u and me.

be strong.
meeting every need.

be strong.
changes there mux be.

be strong.
Jesus is there for me.

be strong.
visions pushing thee.

be strong.
mastering unity.

be strong.


He is closer to u den the air tt u breathe.
He is here, there and everywhere.
In the fire, there He is.
Down the pit, there lies He.
but haf u wondered y God seems soo far away sometimes?

the keyword is "seems".
the actual fact goes like this. God is always there. Through good and bad times, He is and will always be there. unconditional love and never-ending grace He has promised. when u feel distant frm Him, search within yourselves. are u seeking Him wholly wif ur heart or are u distracted by other tings?

turn your eyes upon Jesus
look full in His wonderful face
and the things of the earth will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace.

cg reshuffling,
promotion and demotion,
breakthrough in mindsets.
God is moving.
everything is from God, by God and through God.
wat else can i say?

I retire.
God, You're in charge.

Wove Rainbows At Monday, May 30, 2005

distraction exist in sooo mani forms..

studies, family, friends, bgr, desire for power and authority, work, wealth, blah...u name it, u have it...

distractions are super lethal...they occupy our minds causing us to lose focus on some of the most impt tings in life...when the priorities in our life are not set right, our life gets thrown off-balance...mistakes will be made, consequences will be waiting to be answered...

guess all of us knows dis...i'm jux reiterating one of the most common sensical tings..but, haf u ever tried getting rid of these distractions? or are u indulging in them? enjoying them? pushing aside all the warning signs and alarm bells?

feel tt mani of us are distracted by tings of the world...our studies, bgr, our family problems, fun and games etc...we are soo sucked in by them tt we overwrite God's place in our hearts and lives..God's position gets lower and lower each day, each wk...from the top of our list to the middle and gradually right to the bottom...

friends, when you are dry...when you feel tt you're drifting away frm God....rmb dis, God is and will always be holding unto u tightly wif both hands...He will never ever let go...when u scold Him, when u blame Him, when u curse Him, when u sin against Him, these hands of His will still be holding unto u..hands of love, hands of forgiveness, hands of comfort and encouragement, hands of mercy...when we slip, He catches hold of our flailing hands and steadies us...all he wants frm us is our hearts..

a heart after You is all i want..burdened, stressed, worried, fearful i cum b4 You...onli You can mk tings right..enlarge mi capacity i pray...i'm off to do QT now...mi source i need You!!!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, May 27, 2005

sch has started; never ending lectures, tutorials and lab lessons...bleh! i soo wanna whine!!! gotta cut down on alot of stuff now if not i wun be able to cope wif the extra work load..the thought of having to go thru dis sem and future sems w/o denise, mi rock and pillar, is jux sooo unbearable...soo sian larhx...i jux seem soo different frm the "outside world"...crevices are growing bigger and deeper...i feel wierd, uncomfortable, even awkard...now i noe how keeanu reeves feels when he is plugged in the matrix..in the context of the show la...everyting is jux soo fake...

i mux sound like a grumpy, totally-impossible-to-live-wif old hag huh...heck..i'm way past caring now...

oki, steam has been let off...moving on to more serious issues...

wat happened on sunday realli opened mi eyes..i've always thot tt i have seen the worst, experienced the worst and felt the worst...o deluded me!!! God jux keep surprising me time and again by placing pple wif all sorts of background in mi life...problems of all nature and sizes...wat can i say? this world is a cruel world...no peace, no hope and no love...

pple claim tt if you don't help yourself, God will not help you...BULLSHIT larhx!! whoever invented dis quote or phrase or watever u call it must have an IQ of an ant egg...maybe even smaller..pls larhx...if you can help yourself wat do u need God for? if pple can solve ALL their problems and deal wif their emotions, why do pple still suffer frm mental breakdowns? why do pple commit suicide?? WHY??!!

when you're pushed to a corner, when you find urself at a dead end, when the walls arnd u start closing in, wat are u going to do??? depend on yourself to solve the problem u created?? ironic?? yeah..ironically dumb! you're in dis mess becox u refuse to trust others and let them help u...u tink u can solve everyting by urself? incredible hulk? batman or catwoman? stop dreaming larhx...

problems will arise whether u like it or not...how will u deal wif them? by urself or wif God?

i serve a God who is bigger den the whole universe...
i serve a God who loves me enough to send His only son to die for mi sins...
i serve a God who is full of mercy and grace...
i serve a God who cancels mi sins and doesn't rmb mi trangressions...
i serve a God who heals me of mi sicknesses and infirmities...
i serve a God who never leaves me nor forsakes me...
i serve a God who heals mi hurts and piece mi broken heart...
i serve a God who comforts me when i'm down and guides me when i'm lost...
i serve a God who is faithful and just...
i serve a God who holds mi hands and never let go...
i serve a God who is my best friend, my Father and my comforter...
i serve a God who is ALWAYS there for me...
i serve a God who loves me unconditionally...

more than words can explain
more than life could ever bring
i love YOU!!
i love YOU!!!

more than any of mi dreams
more than wat you've given to me
i love YOU!!
i love YOU JESUS!!!

watever problems you're facing wif, submit them to Jesus...He loves you more den u can ever imagine...

out of darkness shines a great light...
out of coldness comes greath warmth...

my beloved King!! wat can i thank You for today?
for every breath i give You thanks...
for every heart beat i give You praise...
You're my everything!!

Thank You!

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, May 25, 2005

crazy photobucket...at size 50%, the pic was soo big...at 25%, it shrunk to a lil puny black ting...=X there goes my hi-5 pic...n, the worst part is, i can't resize it back to its orignial size! gah! pig!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, May 20, 2005

when 1 ting after another comes crashing down
when u feel like you're treading on quick sand
when the ground beneath u quakes
when you feel like the world has forsaken you
when you feel like you're going through premature hell
when ur emotions are played and manipulated wif
when you're covered wif cuts and bruises
when you can hardly breathe...................

tts when we turn to God
tts when we start spending time wif Him
tts when we tell Him how much we love Him
tts when we start praying
tts when we get down on our knees and ask for forgiveness
tts when we realize how sinful and dirty we are............

sometimes i question myself...are humans such unfeeling, insensitive creatures towards God; the God who sent His only son down to earth to die for our sins...instead of giving Him due honour and praise we often push Him to one side...after we have had fun and are totally shagged than we turn to Him claiming tt we can feel His presence "stronger" becox we are sacrificing our sleep to seek Him...but when we're down its a diff story altogether...

we're all guilty of taking God for granted in one way or another at some point in our life...am guilty miself...lets not do tt anymore...feels like we're "making use" of Him which is sooo wrong larhx...=X

we're all members of 1 body...the body of Christ...God impressed upon each and everyone of us figures of authority to lead us along the right path...if u refuse to cooperate wif them its your loss...we are called to serve our leaders...to gif them due respect..not the other way round...you either keep in line or u fall out...u choose...

on a lighter note, haf been veh blessed by the <> album produced by Christian City Church...a great tool for helping one enter into the presence of
God...well, dis wk has certainly taught me an impt lesson...when you haf a prob, dun turn to man or tings of dis world for solutions...turn to God...only He can provide the perfect solution to ur prob and at the same time break ur mindset and ur limitations bringing you to ur nx level...

am back on mi journey...loving Him, trusting Him, enjoying the ride wif Him...

there's onli ups and downs; no backing out...=D

am excited bout wat lies ahead!!! lead me i pray!!!

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, May 17, 2005

THANK YOU for the promises you made,
for the gift of life you gave,
always i will sing your praise....

THANK YOU for the chance to live again,
for your grace that never ends,
always i will sing your praise....

HALLELUJAH....
HALLELUJAH....
HALLELUJAH....
my beloved king, to whom i sing...

what can i thank Him for today???

for setting me back onto the right path...
for helping me deal wif problems instead of running away...
for enlarging my capacity...
for He's unconditional love...
for the healing of hurts...
for He's presence which filled up the void in me...

change me o Lord...i never wanna be the same again!!!

Wove Rainbows At Sunday, May 15, 2005

wat a life-changing week!!!
am soooo blessed!!!

the wk started on a sour note
got realli pissed off over something
an issue tt i have been compromising for some time
i jux exploded; like an overstretched balloon
the gd ting was, i exploded to God not man...phew...
if not it would haf been ugly

well, emotions are God's way of addressing certain issues in our lives..thank you Jesus for emotions!!!~

conference was GREAT!!! got new visions and dreams from God!! life jux gets more and more exciting wif Jesus in the middle of it!! ^o^

i din sleep at all yesterday..was toking to mi mum the whole night for several hrs..i shared wif her doc phil pringle's messages...den we started toking about our lives..i jux vomitted out everyting tt i was going thru...the challenges tt i was facing, the lessons tt i've learnt, how good God has been to me, everyting i told her!!! mi mum also shared wif me her experiences and the frustrations she has had...after telling me how much she loved me, she started tearing...mi heart broke then....to a million pieces....i've always taken her for granted...been shrugging her to one side of mi life; tucking her way back in mi store room of thoughts and emotions...o how much i love her!!! more den anyting on dis earth besides God of cox...i'm going to mk amends frm today onwards...ma, YOU'RE THE BEST!!!

GOD, i'm sorry for ever breaking ur heart...i noe how painful it feels...mi source of strength, I NEED YOU!!!

Wove Rainbows At Friday, May 13, 2005

major changes are happening and are going to happen...

venturing into the unknown ; going against your personality ; stepping out of ur nice snug territory...

afraid? you bet i am!!!

BUT, fear is jux a feeling, an emotion...feelings haf no power at all to "make" you do smt...feelings jux confuse you, mess up your emotional balance causing you to mk rash decisions on impulse...

faith on the other hand, is a decision...you just believe...when tings are not going ur way, when ur world is falling apart, when your convictions are wavering, when you feel all dry and slimy, when you feel like no one cares, when you feel insecure and lousy abt yourself, faith in a good God is able to set tings right...His promises are new every morning...you just hafta claim them with faith in Jesus name!

well, there is no turning back for me...seen too much, felt too much, put in too much time n effort...dis walk is going to be for eternity...am glad! =)

whatever happens, its God's will..let Your kingdom come, let Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven...

Amen!

i'm at peace...

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, May 11, 2005

have been rather bothered by certain issues in mi life dis past few weeks...period of moulding frm my Father above...

as a result, i've been rather quiet when i'm wif friends...i jux feel soo cut off frm the world...wats the latest movie? i don't noe...wats the hottest new celebrity? i don't noe...wats the latest craze? i don't noe either...on top of tt, i'm trying desperately hard to uncover the "real me"...the crap, nonsensical tok n jokes jux seem soo silly to me now..growing up? maturing? i don't noe...i'm still feeling rather lost...in a daze...

well, how mani "i don't noes" haf i mentioned?? quite a handful huh...i'm not trying to act dumb or wat mind u...i realli DON'T NOE!! well, we'll see where God leads me...if He points right, i'll go right...i don't need to noe anyting...jux obey n follow...=)

my QT has been solid dis past few days...jux kept tearing n tearing in the presence of God!! the loneliness n disappointment haf been replaced by the perfect peace, perfect joy and perfect love of Jesus...all the guilt is gone for there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus!!! when we sin, He is not going to leave us nor forsake us...He will deal with tt issue but He will still be there as our source of strength and comfort...His grace is sufficient to abound all sins!!! when u sin, don't turn away from Him..turn TO Him!!! He will lead u out of ur mess!!

i serve a faithful God!! a God tt is love itself!! i love you JESUS!!! for everyting tt you've done and is going to do...i noe i can trust You to lead me on for You have promised tt all tings turn out for the good of those who love You..

unsure of wat lies ahead? jux trust Him...keep walking; keep learning; keep believing...

Wove Rainbows At Monday, May 09, 2005

love...jux wat is love anywayz??
such a simple word made up of onli 4 letters but yet is desired by all...
on the quest to seek love, few are left unhurt...
often venturing out in the wrong directions
mani hearts are shattered...

in the dictionary, love has 7 definations...the most common being: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

frm the defination above, we noe tt love cannot be described using words...even the most highly educated professors are unable to describe love...feeling lost??? lets look at the word ineffable found in the defination above...ineffable means incapable of being expressed; indescribable or unutterable...

if love cannot be described using words, den wat is realli love???

watched the passion of Christ yesterday...Jesus showed me wat love is; not jux flowery phrases sprouted out of inspiration or appreciation but rather the act of self-sacrifice for people whom we love...i used to tink tt its no big deal cox Jesus is the son of God but i conveniently left out the part tt Jesus is also the son of man...every stripe tt He bore must have hurt like mad...his blood flowed n spurted everywhere...innocent, holy blood tt was shed to save sinful people like us...talk about unfairness huh...

tinking back, i used to be the most ungrateful person on earth...taking tings for-granted...always taking n taking n taking...the onli ting i was willing to give was mi sticky, stale candies or mi mouldy soft toys..the best i kept for miself...when tings went wrong, i blamed God for it...when i had to face the consequences for giving in to temptations i would tell God tt He didn't noe wat i was experiencing n thus He had no right to judge me in any way...my, my, my...wat a deluded life i led...

God must have been super angry wif me but He has nv stopped taking care of me...tts the wonderful ting about God...His grace is sufficient for even the most disgusting, unforgivable pple arnd...

its soo comforting to noe tt God understands how we feel and wat we are going through becox 2000 yrs ago, God came down to earth n suffered the very same tings tt we are suffering with...

soo wat is love?? JESUS is love...

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, May 03, 2005