a walk, a thought...

yesterday as i was walking hme frm mi piano lesson, i heard a lil boi suffering frm down syndrome singing...there he stood in he's living room holding the mike, trying to sing in tune to the music, shaking away and jux enjoying himself...there was a smile on he's face and he looked soo happy...the image of him jux can't get outta mi mind..a person sooo pure, soo innocent, soo happy, sooo carefree, sooo himself; totally oblivious to how reality has judged him and dealt wif him...i wanted to rush in and hug him...i wanted to bring him hme wif me...i wanted to stand beside him and join him singing...

AHHH!!! how i love kids suffering frm down syndrome...i gotta join JAMS soon!!! i jux gotta!!! a chance to love more...a chance for me to cultivate love...a chance for me to mk a difference in someone's life...

there was a young man walking down a deserted beach just before dawn. In the distance he saw a frail old man. As he approached the old man, he saw him picking up stranded starfishes and throwing them back into the sea. The young man gazed in wonder as the old man again threw the small starfish into the water. He asked, "old man, why do you spend so much energy doing what seems to ba a waste of time." The old man explained that the stranded starfish would die if left in the morning sun. "But there must be thousands of beaches and millions of starfishes!" exclaimed the young man. "How can you make any difference?" The old man looked at the small starfish in his hand and as he threw it to the safety of the sea, he said, "It makes a difference to this one!"

how beautiful...

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, March 30, 2005

wat a hectic wk...exams screwing mi brain cells, reaching out to the lost, the adrenaline pumping up to max levels and the nagging thoughts bout 'not-enuff-time'...but, its all over!! whoosh!! it feels like soo long since i last sat down at mi comp w/o much worries...

wells, but i kindda miss indoor stadium larhx..in and out in and out...the pushing n nudgings..the cutting of queues...the guilty giggles...the 'oh its sooo hot' phrase and the 'chiong arhx!!'...wat fond memories...indoor stadium is like our second church le...realli enjoyed the easter svcs...the wonderful presence of God, the solid drama, the touching msg preached and jux the company of the new friends in our midst...used to hate calling up friends and inviting them for svc or cg..but, when i saw the tears in the eyes of mi friends as they stepped out of their seats to receive salvation, smt jux moved me...tings jux clicked into place...calling up friends is actually the first step to getting their names written in the bk of life..suddenly the rejections din matter anymore..the disappointments jux cancelled themselves...even if u call a 100 pple but onli 1 person cum and receive Christ, its worth it le!!! well, calling up friends will nv be the same for me again..

another breakthrough for E243!! arnd 50 friends came for easter svc and 19 received salvation!!! Praise the Lord!! lets realli pray for retention!! let not one of these friends be lost to the devil!!! its a fight!! its a battle!! its a war against the evil wan!! lets realli stretch out our hands n save those hu haf secured themselves a place in hell!! lets jux trust God to move amidst and through us!! pray and fast like nv b4...build up ur faith!! keep confessing God's promises!!! be faithful in every single ting!! lets breakthrough together!!!

prayer meeting....used to seem sooo intimidating to mee...the thought of praying in front of 10-20 pple whom i'm not familiar wif was enuff to mk mee break out in cold sweat...now, i actually enjoy going for pm...as each prayer was made, faith replaced fear!! external tings din matter anymore...leg cramps and growling stomach became secondary...wow!! i wanna dwell in this type of presence more!! i wan more...MORE!!!! devil is attacking...he is going to stop us by filling us wif procrastination, fear and doubt!! breakthrough!!! BREAKTHROUGH!!!

okie, lastly...i'm soo in love wif dis song frm planetshakers, titled <>...go check it out!!! cheers!!

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, March 29, 2005

there goes mi fc...arrgh!!! all mi efforts wasted...gotta learn to depend on God for guidance in every aspect of mi life...including studies...God!!! sup paper is cuming!!! help mee!!!! dis time i gif u not mi 99.9%, i gif u mi all!! tk wat lil i have...multiply it for ur glory!!

*breathes in the fresh air* seems like a long time since i last admired God's creations...the tings on this earth..the green leaves on the trees...the flowers falling by the dozens...the clean fresh air free frm pollution...life is good!!

a yawn...dropping eyelids...deep eyebags...nature's way of telling us to get sleep...

gimme a few hrs..i need to hibernate..

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, March 24, 2005

bnf paper is over!!! u heard tt?? ITS OVER!!!! phew, a load off mi shoulders...paper was ok i guess...section A and B was easy..did it wif a lil grin..but when i turned over the page to section C, tt smirk faded...realizing tt i onli knew how to do a 6m ques out of the 45 marks worth of essays, i naturally panicked..but God is gd larhx...step by step, He pieced the scattered info like a puzzle...bit by bit He reminded me of wat i had studied...though the ans i scribbled down was a lil wierd but wierd doesn't equate to wrong!! period.

lalalala, mi record...onli slept for 2 n a half hrs yesterday but i am still sooo wide awake...i bet its not the chicken essence cox i slept lky a log on sun n mon n drank tt nasty black liquid too but i was still half dead...i'm more awake wif chicken essence n 2 n 1/2 hrs of sleep than i was wif chicken essence n 8 hrs of sleep...dun feel bad if u are lost...i got lost myself somewhere in the middle..

1 last paper to go...FC!!! a sub tt requires an awful lot of memorizing...lets countdown...22 hrs frm now n i'll be FREE!!!! free like a bird!! of cox i haven forgotten bout sup paper but let tml tk care of itself!! i wanna play n go mad first!!! *rubs hands wif glee* i can't wait...i can't wait...

*stares at the comp in shock* i can't believe it...mi mum bought some wierd ginger snack n she's offering it to me!! i mean hello....GINGER SNACK??!!!! haf u heard of aniting more vile den ginger snack?? ewwww....no way am i touching tt stuff!! eee..tk it away frm me..shoooo!!! shoo!!! *heaves a sigh of relief* tink she's chomping on it now...=x

ok...study time...i miss u comp..i miss u msn..its been a day since i last felt u...22 hrs...gimme 22 hrs...magic no. 22....ahhhh!!! i can't wait...

pyridoxine, osmoreceptors, aldosterone, anti-diuretic hormone, leptin, methionine, cobalamin, megablastic anemia, microcytic hypochromic anemia, pernicious anemia, avidin...last tribute to wat i jammed in yest...lets observe 1 min of silence...

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, March 23, 2005

jux got out of the hot seat in the examination room...well, wat can i say?? i din study soo i deserve wat's cuming mi way...i jux dunno wat is wrong wif mee...i'm soo sooo distracted...i can't seem to be able to sit still n study..i'm always walking abt trying to find some junk food to eat...i keep dreaming of death...i keep feeling soo uneasy even when i'm doing QT!!! i visit the loo to shit like 3-4 times a day...i have dis irritating sudden sharp pain in my side n i'm now currently abt to close mi eyes n ploop into dreamland...arrgh!!! WATEVER IS WRONG WIF MI ME DIS PAST WK??!!!

okie, i noe i sound like some pathetic o-pity-me freak...but jux lemme scream out mi frustrations online k?? exams are turning mee into a emotional, mental n physical wreck!! all i can tink of doing is sitting in mi room, listening to music, lying on mi bed wif a mountain of choc beside me n jux literally rot to death...hahhaha...i noe tts wrong...lifes' short...someone pls slap me back to mi senses...

n, one more ting..mi patience level dis past 2 days haf been way over the scales...i get sooo irritated wif the slightest ting..even the plastic bag swaying in the wind is enuff to mk me turn n glare at it for a whole min b4 running to examine wat treasure lies inside it...totally NUTS!! i gotta get back mi balance!!! n, where is mi self-control?!! gone wif the wind huh...blehs...i feel like a lump of clay covered in horrendous green slime!!!

anywayz, pls acknowledge the fact tt its not entirely abt me!!! the devil is using dis super stressful period to cum attack me!!! n, wats more easter is cuming...chiong arhx!!! after every trial n tribulation, comes a chance to grow...a chance to breakthrough n emerge a stronger person!!! even if u are stuck in a seemingly never-ending valley, jux keep walking...at the end of every valley lies smt wonderful...if u gif up half-way, u'll be stuck in tat same valley for life!!! wat do u haf to lose?? jux keep walking on...on....and ON!!!!

btw, i'm ok le...hahhahhaa...jux vomitting out everyting i felt over the past wk larhx...serious mood swing huh...anywayz, for those of u out there hu dun like doing QT, u're missing out on smt BIG!!! n, when i say big, i realli mean BIG!!!

easter is cuming!!! breakthroughs too!! lots of them...i jux feel it in mi gut!!!
mi current position : in the changing room putting on mi helmet of wisdom, breastplate of righteousness and cleaning mi sword of truth!!! into the battlefield i go renewed in God's truth n promises carrying an assurance no devil can break!!!

~go therefore n mk disciples of all nations...baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost n lo i will be wif u to the ends of the earth!!~

CHIONG ARHX!!!!

Wove Rainbows At Monday, March 21, 2005

u noe wats' the best way to de-stress?? go cg n svc!! DUH...

yeeks, look at the time...gotta chow...wat a long entry huh?

Wove Rainbows At Saturday, March 19, 2005

i'm addicted...


Cotton Candy- Babe your a sweetheart and your
extremely nice you've got friends a plenty that
love you cause your addictive :)

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, March 17, 2005

HAPPY B'DAE TO YOU, HAPPY B'DAE TO YOU..HAPPY B'DAE TO MAMA!!!! HAPPY B'DAE TO YOU!!! LUV YA ALWAYS!!! MI SAFETY NET, MI LOVE-GIVER, MI EVER-PRESENT HELP IN TIMES OF NEED!!! MI MOST FAV PERSON AFTER GOD!!! u tk gd care kay?? if aniting shd happen to u (God forbid) i will go stark staring mad!!! luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya luv ya LUV YA!!!!!!

jux had a lil tok wif mi neighbour...its been almost 1 yr since i last toked to him...my, how much he has changed...frm a scrawny lil guy hu whines all the time to a grown dignified man fervent for the Lord...

*flashes back*

me n mi cousins flipped thru the photo album last sun...felt miself being led by the hand down memory-lane to a time when mi fav phrases were, "i dun friend u" and "ma, he bully me"...how time flies..as i turned the pgs, i was reminded of wat living in utopia feels like...the smiles tt were constantly plastered on our faces...the childish quarrels n pulling of hair...even frm the albums, i could alreadi see the changes tt had taken place...

ahhh..i miss mi brother!!! i miss he's o-so-cold jokes!! i miss he's spiky grass-like hair!!! i miss he's nonchalent attitute!! i miss he's "wats the big deal" look!!! i miss he's blushings!! i miss he's teasings!!! i miss he's sniggering!! i miss he's "aiya, u veh stupid leh!!" phrase!!! i miss him!!!! this sounds wierd but i feel sad when i dun see the familiar image of him parked there in front of the comp like a bulldozer staring at the screen!! God protect mi brother!!! send ur angels to watch over him!!! let no harm befall him!!! send him home safely in 1 piece!!!!

to mk tings worse, zhiwei n ben will be going in 3 wks time too!!! dis sucks!!! no mood to blog le larhx!!!

feeling : cranky

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, March 17, 2005

i'm not here...shhh...suppose to be studying now but o heck!!! came creeping here on tippy toes to blog...heh heh heh!! btw, i was soo bored jux now tt i started playing wif mi hair!! now i look like a sun wif all the lil bit n pieces of hair sticking out....*rolls eyes* anywayz, did some quiz tingy jux now!! maaan...i feel soo spasticated!! jux look at the results below...

am i as fat as a chinchilla?? *crys* n wats wif the many layers of fuzz?? i dun like hair!! try to shave it all off everytime!! hrrmph!!


Your a chinchilla:Super cute and adorable, groomed to be the fuzzy
master!Your the FUZZIEST!!!!!!!! You have so many layers
of fuzz you cant even find your own feet. Your
cute and proud of it, so fuzzy and outgoing, no
wonder people like you! And just look at those
whiskers! =^_^=

i'm gentle by nature?? HAHAHAHAH!! GIMME A BREAK!!! but, maybe there's some truth in tt statement?? *blinks hopefully* n............i'm NOT NAIVE!!! I'M NOT I'M NOT I'M NOT!!! dis ting is fake wan!!!!!


Mint Tea...You are Mint Tea!Naturally sweet you have a happy-go-lucky attitude.
The world is full of fun and wonder! Although
you can be naive at times and quite aloof to
your surroundings you know how to have good
clean fun! Most people see you as cute and very
gentle by nature and it is most likely true.
You have a great outlook on life and you try
not to let things get to you. Go you!

ehhh..dunno whether wanna laff or cry at dis wan...


Mischievous, trouble making, eccentric and curiousYou are no sprite! Your a pixi! Full of mischief
and spunk you are a natural prankster and love
to pull wild and crazy stunts! You have sticky
fingers and anything shiny is quite attractive
and will pull you towards it like a magnet! But
your not all bad, you have a great sense of
humor that will make even the most up-tight
person laugh, to make people laugh is an
awesome gift! You are quite childish and most
times leap before you think, fun comes before
reason but to you the price is worth paying.
Pixies are usually quite a nuisance, you are
very unique. You are full of energy and
childlike happiness, you know how to live life
to the fullest!

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Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

lolx...din noe i soo gd wan..hahahahah!!! guys, try this..veh interesting!!

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Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, March 15, 2005

update update...am now fulfilling mi promise made to joyce...hahahah...

wat a hectic wk!!! been up to mi neck wif projects, tests, hw, bla bla bla!!! maan, i tink i wld certainly haf gone mad if i didn't haf God wif me!!! serious!!! but surprisingly i was quite relax leh..tink i'm learning to trust in Him more..heh heh!!

went for the healing crusade held at the sis on fri n sun!!! rev benny hinn is such an annointed man!!! thru him, God realli opened mi eyes to the supernatural...the blind could see n the lame could walk!! besides experiencing the power n presence of God, we were also drilled in the word of God!!! lemme share wif u wat i've learnt over the past 2-3 days!!

how do u know tt u're saved??
ans: when u are willing to die for wat u know!!

how do u know tt God is speaking to u??
ans: u jux know tt u know tt u know tt u know by the witness of the spirit..God speaks to the heart...He speaks in a still small voice when there is Godly silence...rmb the verse "be still and know I am God"..

when u're in the presence of God, everyting about u changes...out of His presence comes power!! but rmb, the presence of God changes the heart, not power!!! don't seek healing, seek the HEALER!! don't seek 4giveness, seek the FORGIVER!!! wow!!! great word huh??

choices...everyting evoles arnd a choice...we dun haf a choice to be born into dis world; our parents made the decision for us...but we haf a choice as to where we want to be in the next life...there is onli 2 places we can go after we die...either heaven or hell...n we hafta spend ETERNITY in either place..in hell u'll burn in a lake of fire for eternity...in heaven there is no imperfection...everyting is PERFECT!! there is no unhappiness, no sorrow, no worries, no stress...u choose...

u know how much God loves us?? He loves us enuff to send His ONLY son to die a terribly long, painful n humiliting death on the cross!!! jux imagine...Jesus had EVERYTING in heaven...He had angels to serve Him, He had all the glory n honour n riches!!! but, He chose to cum down to earth born in a stable w/o a single cent to His name...His love is UNCONDITIONAL!! no sin is tooo great for God to turn His back on us!! God will nv leave us nor forsake u!! even if we've forsaken Him, rejected Him, sinned knowingly against Him, He is still waiting for us to run back into His loving arms!! dun squander away ur destiny!! cum back to Him all hu are lost!!

am soo looking forward to svc wif sy rogers dis wk!! hee...okie enuff said...am going to spend time wif God...might not be blogging anymore until exams are over...sooo dun miss mee k?? yeah! tk care everyone!! luv ya!!~

~when the going gets tough, jux keep walking becox u can be sure tt if God brings u through it, He will bring u to it!!~ cheers!!

Wove Rainbows At Monday, March 14, 2005

satan sucks!! u suck!!! u are the most evil, vile, smelly, scheming, irritating, useless, good-for-nothing idiot u heard tat?? u better stop ka jiaoing me if not i'll whack ur sorry ass down hell!!! n i mean it!!! i'll use the bible n chop off ur head!! use prayer to slice ur fats!!! use tongues to irritate u!!!! ahhh!!! I HATE YOU!!!! KEEP UR FAT SMELLY FINGERS TO URSELF!!! DON'T U DARE TOUCH ME OR MI FAMILY U HEAR TAT??????!!!!!!!!!!

Wove Rainbows At Monday, March 07, 2005

*growl* tts mi stomach..i'm hungry...

i'm now in the cyber cafe waiting for the meeting to start...jux finished mi 20th century fashion class..maan...tts wan boring class!!! but, thank God our dear rolly polly mr wilson choo is such a darling...he is super nice can?? he didn't even scold me when i passed up mi journal 2 wks late..opps...wanna thank weiqi, yanxin, meixi n eunice for waiting for me...they're such nice pple!! thank God for friends like these...

was in a nasty mood when i stepped out of the car...was soo super sleepy!!! felt like crawling back hme to mi nice bed n bolster!! haiz...God!!! how long more are u going to torture me wif sch?? anywayz, was dragging miself up the stairs when i saw ah lian...she had tears welling up her eyes n down her cheeks...mi heart jux went up to her larhx..budden i didn't wan to probe too much for fear of reopening her wound...soo there i stood walking beside her feeling like the world's most useless idiot!! i've nv been gd at consoling pple..n, i am always at a loss when a person cries...soo, there i was gaping at her wif mi mouth wide open...(stupid rite?)

den we had our bmic lab lesson..okie, mi dear humphrey ko is soo cute larhx can??!! but was rather annoyed when he mistook yanxin for mee!!! *crys* den when he realized he's mistake, he was soo paiseh u noe!! hahahah!!! blush like mad den he told yanxin tat he always associate me wif singing cox i always sing in class..*burst out laffing* soo cute rite?? but caught him walking to engineering canteen wif a FEMALE lecturer during break time!!! *ping ping piang piang* mi heart broke instantly into smithereens!! haiz...onli time can heal a broken heart!! hhahahaha, how crappy can i get??

1 gd ting bout poly is tat u haf more time to hang out wif ur classmates cox the breaks are awfully long!! i luv ma high-5 gang!!..we're like peanut butter n jelly...totally diff but we stick real well on bread!! am looking forward to getting to noe them better;frm inside out...denise, yanxin, michy n tiff...u guys rock!!

Wove Rainbows At Thursday, March 03, 2005

okie, the reason y i chose dis title is becox i'm feeling guilty now...ate a choc ice-cream cone jux now when i'm suppose to be on a diet...dis stinks!!! the guilt is sinking in..

o well, life is full of choices..u either go dis way or tat..u either turn right or left.. mistakes are represented by wrong turns...as we are all imprefect beings, we are bound to mk mistakes every now n den..its all part of our human nature..on the road, its no big deal if u mk a wrong turn..all u hafta do is to U-turn...its the same wif mistakes...u mk them to learn frm them..how do u expect to learn aniting if u're a lil miss perfect all prim n proper?!

am rather disturbed by the latest news: teenage ger wraps baby in plastic bag n disposes it in the rubbish chute...tts sooo sick!! i mean hello...thats ur own baby for crying out loud!! u were the one hu gave birth to him/her..if u dun wan the baby dun make one in the first place larhx..soo irritating leh dis pple!! their brains muz be full of squashed flies n nth else!!! o well, ur baby will go to heaven while u burn in hell!! okie, i'm pissed......................

*calms down* cum to tink of it....everything involves a choice..u wan gd results, u gotta study hard...u wan money, u gotta work for it...u wan glory, u gotta fight for it...shuo de rong yi, zhuo de nan!!! (words w/o action = crap) okie, enuff said...project, here i cum!!! wee~

Wove Rainbows At Wednesday, March 02, 2005

i luvvee mi new blogskin!!! ain't it nice?? but its a lil too pinky larhx...but, i still LUVVEE it!!! ahhaha!!! feel soo proud of miself k!! finally found a nice wan after soo mani hrs of endless searching!! yupz, jux finished mi maths quiz soo am now up here in the lab blogging...haf i announced tat i hate maths?? okie, here goes...

I HATE MATHS!!!

*scratches chin* cum to tink of it i dun realli hate maths larhx!! i tink i'm jux allergic to maths!! seriously dun like the numbers and the formulas...reminds me of ants scurrying all over the paper!! dun feel bad if u got lost..i'm a lil mixed up miself...

o yar o yar!!! announcement: I PASSED MI BNF QUIZ!!! o man!!! i'm elated!!! okok, but dun congratulate me..the glory belongs to God... am soo looking forward to cg n svc!! dum dee dee dum..

exams are cuming!!! nononononono!!! gotta start mugging le...peng you men!!! wo men yi qi jia you k??!!! luv ya all!! *muackiezzzzzz*

Wove Rainbows At Tuesday, March 01, 2005